Thanks so much for your replies.
I did go out and I did enjoy myself up to a point. I managed to suck everything up and put on a good front, but as the night wore on it got harder.
My Boyfriend wanted to leave and asked if I fancied going home a little earlier, I said yes.
We were going to get a cab but when I started to get emotional, we decided to walk to give us a chance to talk.
By the end of the walk I was a complete mess.
I was sobbing and felt like I couldn't breathe.
He was great and helped me through it, talked to me about everything and listened to me go on. We shared a great deal of stuff we'd not shared before.
I felt terrible for putting it all on him. I kept apologising. I couldn't stop crying.
He told me that by opening up in this way brought us closer, and made it easier for him to support me. But I've never had someone be there for me like he is and I found it hard to handle.
I was okay in the end and he sat with me until I stopped crying.
I feel extremely delicate now...although I do feel a little better for getting it all out.
He agreed that I should go to my GP. Even said he'd come with me.
I hate depending on him like this. Its not fair. I'm frightened that he just feels obliged to be with me.
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