Hi, I dont really know the situation, but is there a way that you can get back on your medications? it seems like you are saying things are getting worse because you have gone off of them. Try to keep track of what your real feelings are, and the feelings you are getting because of the chemical changes going on in your body. You may feel anger for your husband, but he may be trying to help you and not know how. I don't know how the health care system works in the UK, but can you try to get in to see someone soon? I'm glad you were able to get a hold of your therapist on the phone, but sometimes a phone call or a slow internet forum isn't quite enough.
Try to hang in there, try to keep away from new and worse forms of SI, its harder to stop if you start.
-brian
