[bleedingdragon]

i cant deal with stuff anymore im tired of going through this sh*t
ive just ranted about my bully, too tired to write it, but im gonna try

went to a park today with my mum to listen to a brass band, i only went for her, i look up to see ....er........omg.....omg
there is my bullies sidekick ...arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
sh*t.....sh*t ....omg i cant deal with the emotions inside there gonna make me explode...............

damn damn wher is he wheres my bully im franticly looking round now he my bullies sidekick is talking to someone who looks like my bully
arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hhhhhhh
scream..........scream...................
it cant be him it cant im gonna run right here right now.................
im scanning them its not my bully i cant deal thank god for that.....but then he might be here to i cant stand this
its tearing me apart
cant see my bully but the sidekick is there stood there im crying my eyes out trying to hide them, e


verything is getting out of hand im drowning here its gonna take control
we have to leave we have to go i cant deal with this. we set of im sheilding myself with my mum im ready to run ready to fight
im loosing it im scanning everyone around is he here , is he here

everone who looks like my bullies sidekick or my bully is triggering me
my poor mum is being shunted about im

stopping and starting ready to stand my ground and run like hell

my bullying stopped a year ago at work, left my job on ill health ,
but im still tormented my bully lives locally arhhh.

this just showws me hes still inside me so much and hes screwed my
bloody life up completly, i wish you were both dead , im about to crack i cant go through this sh*t
anymore its destroying me, hell just destroy me for gods sake stop
this hellish battle inside im sick of it im sick of everything

i cant escape it................................................ ...................
i will never have justice........................................... ................
i will never have justice........................................... ..........
i cant live without justice........................................... .....

i cant go on like this im wounded inside and its killing me
hes free to roam around not punished while i suffer so much
my nurse just tells me to stop being depressed and negative and saying everythings negative everytime i go to my sessions
she doesnt listen to my wanting to escape she throws it back in my facee
i cant get over my marriage truama ,abuse, my bullying yet,
im alone with this burden no one will listen to me anymore
im tired of this fight im holding onto seing a psychologist but i dont know if
i will be allowed to see one, if i cant thats it im gonna give up

im fighting everything alone apart from ryl, hell you lot mean so much,
but
im still battling my s**t alone inside without them, the professionals supporting me the nurse isnt listening to me for one,

if i see my bullies sidekick or my bully i cant go through that again i just cant
today proved what they still do to me and im not gonna go through that
im scared of what ill do or say i cant face life im one screwed up headcase,

there are just too many of them to battle......................................



Dave






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