Letter to nurse: thoughts please!
I realise that this is probably asking a lot of you, and that this may be unusual, but I need to tell someone a few things, someone that I trust, and someone I know that might be able to help. So I am writing this letter to talk to you about my anorexia, because I don’t feel able to talk about it in person and I’m also kind of really afraid. I’m not entirely sure, what I am afraid of, myself maybe, what I’m doing? I also think I might be quite vulnerable physically.
I know when I saw you for my patient health check, I was “stable” and finding things ok, and to be honest with you, I really thought things were ok, that day I saw you, I felt so proud of myself when you complimented me, I felt like I had achieved so much, and my weight was only just healthy and I strangely felt ok about that. You made me feel ok about that. I thought I was through the n know who to turn to for help. Now I don’t even know who to turn to for help.
It all started up again a couple of days after I saw you actually. I just had a major relapse, and now I’m even worse than I have ever been before, and I can’t see myself getting out of it this time.
You see the thing is, (and this is why I am mainly writing) my weight has plummeted, from a healthy weight straight back down to an anorexic weight, its happened really quickly as well, which has never happened before, really. Its kind of scary when my rational side thinks about it logically. I have been abusing prescription diuretics (..........) and I don’t even have them on prescription, I buy them online from America, I’m always abusing laxatives, other diuretics and diet pills. I am exercising way to much. I am only eating one meal a day, and that one meal I eat, I throw up soon after, so practically nothing in my system really. Its getting to the stage where I’m vomiting fluids too. I had my blood pressure done not that long ago and it was quite low. And I have been getting general aches and pains constantly. The other day I also blacked out, which was really scary, but I cant stop, I cant pick myself up because I just need to be thin for everything to be ok, I hate being fat, if I could perform my own fat reduction surgery I really would!
I’m sorry to have piled this all on you, I just, I need help, I think. I trust you, I realise you will probably have to pass this onto Dr ........., I just wanted to talk with you first. I have made an appointment to come see you for my weight and blood pressure to be done on the 17th November; I thought maybe we could talk about this letter then? And maybe you could hold off passing it onto a doctor until we have had the chance to speak.
If you could, would you be able to fit me in sooner? If not I understand and can wait. This is my mobile number, in case you can fit me in earlier ==============.
Thank you for reading
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