Thank you, I have alot of new found respect for people in situations such as yours inblack. I'm finding new things out everyday, about me and him, about myself personally, about life in general.
I'm ok. I think.
It was my Birthday yesterday, and We had a good day.
Then this morning, I see his phone and I have to look right? Got to check.
I've become that woman I have always hated. Paranoid, clingy, awful.
He IS trying, SOOO hard to make this ok. I know that.
Until this termination is carried out, I can't move forward and more than anything that is sincerely annoying.
Irritating that we get so far and there is a wall there which stops us moving further.
I want us to move on, and start getting over it. Getting passed it.
Getting to a point where we are happy and comfortable and she doesn't come up every ****ing day.
She is inside my head, and she will be until he cuts her out.
I understand why he can't do that right now, but it doesn't make it any easier to swallow.
Love you all, trying to stay positive!
Going out for dinner with my Aunt tonight so hopefully a few laughs to be had.
Kisses,
Iz x
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