nothing helps. thats the problem. i guess keeping myself busy means that i dont just lie in bed and ruminate, which probably would lead to an overdose as it did last time.
but it doesnt make me feel better. it just keeps me distracted.
when i stop what im doing, or have a flashback, everything is still there. its just hidden inside. hidden inside me. always inside me. nothing seems to work.
ive got my group and then individual therapy tomorrow so maybe she can help me with some coping mechanisms and stuff.
she said she would call me this morning, but she hasnt. psychologists always let you down. ive never had one that hasnt let me down. never had one i can properly trust.
i hope everyone else is ok...
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