All I do is think about cutting, then tell myself not to be so stupid, and have something to eat instead to make myself feel better.
Once I've had something to eat (which 80% of the time turns into a binge) I then either force myself to bring it all back up (which makes me feel ****) or sit in my own pit of misery feeling fat.
The only time I enjoy life right now is when I'm at work. I dont know whether that's because I'm doing so much overtime I'm there constantly or if I'm doing so much overtime because it's the only place I feel even a little bit worthwhile.
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