[jared11385]

I am a 24 year old male from Indiana. I have a drinking problem which has caused me to lose one of my best friends, and now the girl I love more than anything in this world. I don't drink constantly, but I have become aggressive at times when I have. I was with my girlfriend for four years until a few days ago which was my birthday and our anniversary. I decided to celebrate it with a few drinks, and before I knew it something awful happened and I didn't realize what I was doing before it was too late. She left, and she hasn't talked to me since. I've never felt this bad in my life. I don't act like that when I'm sober and I desperately want to quit. I'm afraid that I'll never be able to talk to her again, or be with her. She just seemed so perfect for me. I've never met a girl like her and I don't know if I'll able to meet another one. Right now, I don't want to meet another one... I still want her. I'm really insecure as well because I was born without enamel in my teeth so I might not have them much longer. I'm a little overweight and my hair is already thinning.

Alcohol has ruined my life. I was abused as a child from alcoholic parents. My dad is killing himself with alcohol.I really want help.