Thanks Kat.
The appointment with the psychologist went well. I left home half an hour early so that I could go to the pharmacist and have time to compose myself before the appointment but while I was riding I heard my phone go off. When I got to a point that I could stop I checked my phone and saw it was from a private number but that they had left a voicemail so I checked my voicemail and it was from the doctors surgery where I was to see my new psychologist. They said he had an appointment available right there and then so I rang them and told them I was about 10 minutes away and then continued riding but with added vigour. The session lasted about 45 minutes and was a basic "getting to know you" type session. I was open and honest about a lot of things including mentioning things from my childhood and talking about the dark place that I am currently in. He seemed genuinely interested and even shared a few things about himself like his taste in music. All in all it was quite a positive session. He asked me to make another appointment to see him - which isn't until December - and asked me to get the reception staff to put me on a waiting list in case of cancellations. He said he'd like to see me once a week. I normally get incredibly agitated when I'm nervous about something but by the end of the session my agitation had settled. That is something quite rare.
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