Yes, actually, it does. Thank you for that. i had totally forgotten about that possibility.
I have just called the pharmacy..he will advance me 3 only..so I must go tomorrow. So i will at least (hopefully) sleep tonight, but none for PRN....but I have other stuff...trying to ignore it...
I hate this...he's telling me, Just do it. You deserve it. And just screaming.
I could handle the depression alone...but that added voices/commands gets too much.
Just want it all to shut up...but usually only one way to achieve that...and the 'good' way of )proper) PRN isn't an option anymore...
Thanks Carrie..sorry. havent been much support, I know you are having a **** time right now. The review/whole day at the TC sounds very draining. Are you safe tonight do you think?
Be proud for limiting your drinking, I well know how very ahrd that is.
I don't thihnk I'm so bad as to actaully need IP tbh. I think I can manage this at home...gonna try anyway.
But I made a 'deal' with hubbuy, that if I sink again, no matter how much I fight it, he is to take me...or call police if I refuse.
How apthetic...but when I get to that point, it is what's needed...
I hope I never ever put him thru that.
Just keep telling myself how awful that would be for him..and god forbid my daughter were to witness that! I could never forgive myslef.
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