You are someone in pain, trying to find relief, Doesn't make you a bad person...makes you a person who needs a bit of support right now.
Would calling the crisis line be a possibility? You can call from soemwhere quiet/private..your room, etc.
Just to have an actual voice?
They will likely have some advice on helping your mood out and sometimes just being able to have a voice can be of help.
take care
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