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lifting moods
I dont know what im asking out of this thread, maybe some advice on how to lift your mood?
ive been feeling so so low lately and suicide is constantly on my mind so much so that i am ruining my families lives again by saying im unsafe and then they get angry at me and i havent felt this bad for a few years now, most of my previous suicide attempts ive been very distressed but not this depressed!
i want to try and find a way out this without trying to kill myself because i keep making plans and then telling people and then being stopped and its got to stop!
im being put on anti depressents again next week but i know they take about 6 weeks to work and i just cant hang on that long! i mean i would have done something today if i hadnt been threatened with the police if i left the house!
ive tried watching tv and reading but the stuff that makes me laugh normally just doesnt anymore, ive tried seeing friends and im fine when im with them i cant pretend to be happy and bubbly but deep down im not and even that is starting to slip even my bubbly happyiness with friends is disapearing!
i just need to stop feeling so trapped and sad, its horrible and i feel like im suffocating but i need some relif now, i just cant wait!
if youve read this thank you
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