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REALLY???
Worried I might be getting better.
Worried I may like smiling more.
Worried I won’t need you.
Worried I am feeling better.
Worried I have more energy.
Worried I didn’t do it.
Worried I don’t want to do it.
Worried I am living in a make believe world.
Could this really be happening to me?
Could I really NOT want to harm today?
Could I really be looking forward to next year?
Could I really NOT have a date set to die?
Could I really have no fresh wounds in over a month?
Could it be the meds working?
Could it be she has helped me?
Could I really be making progress?
DO I WANT THIS TO BE ME?
Yes.
IS THIS ME?
Pinch me, yes.
Am I scared?
YES.
Scared of letting go.
Scared of my living.
Scared I don’t have a plan anymore.
Scared I will like school.
Scared of my scars.
Scared to be liked.
Scared to be known.
Anxious about life.
Anticipating life.
LIVING LIFE.
LIFE.
It is what I breathe.
Rain has come a long way
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