So yeah.. I've been around. Haven't posted much at all.. Basically new.
Umm hey. I'm samie or Sam or whatever.
I'm a Presbyterian. Love my church, really active there.
But I feel horrible alot of the time.. SI and god don't mix in my mind. Like, if I'm a child of god, then hurting myself is hurting him.. Idk.

Umm quick story.
Once for some reason I decided I was gonna pray instead of turning to my razorblade. So I just sat down and asked for strength and help. And after a few minutes I felt like it was completely hopeless and pointless and got up to find my blade. Right that second one of my best friends came in (we just walk into each others houses) and said we were going for a walk.
That's the closest I've ever felt to god

Sorry. This is long. I'm not self-centered, I swear =