Thank you.
I'm so alone in my life I don't know how to start changing it.
I have things I want to do. [Join a writing group, for example]. But it all feels so false. Don't ordinary people develop friendships naturally? I just seem to push everyone away. My therapist is encouraging me to look at my past friendships. And she says I would make a very good friend. It just all feels so.. painful. And I don't even know if my past friendships have indeed been friendships. It seems all I've ever done is take, and it feels so awkward to give, and what do I have to give?
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