[svenn]

congratulations on 6 months. that is great. it can be a very tough time. it was for me. i also still had that obsession to drink and like you i wondered if i was an alcoholic. it took a lot to convince myself that i was. i spent a lot of time remembering all of the bad stuff and just how wrong my attitude towards booze was. i also went slightly mental when i found out i owed taxes. long story. and all that was after working the steps once.
i agree with tysee that there are some very hard core drinkers that can become social and moderate drinkers. but they tend not to still be obsessed with drinking after 6 months of sobriety.
when i had those thoughts about possibility about not being an aloholic it went like this:
well i can drink on my birthday
well it would be fine to drink on new years eve as well
once a month is cool
well maybe once a week
it's ok on the weekends
who needs a good nights sleep anyway
and i would get from once a year to nightly again within 2 days. that's just me. once i was able to a little time sober it always helped me to think out what would happen if i did take that first drink. like typsee said, even if you are not really an alcoholic, do you really want to go back to that life?

pm me any time you if you want to talk