I just want to say sorry to everyone who looked at this post. I'm another voice in the crowd screaming to be heard thats all.
I just need to realise I'm not the snowflake i want to be and just get on with living the way everyone else does.
I've just been in my own head alot the past few weeks thats all. Thinking too much about work,my future,everything going on right now and i still feel like the 14 year old with no friends who had nobody to turn to.
Ive done so much to make my life change and nothing has.I still have noone to turn to. I still s/h and i havent learnt anything in my years of telling people about myself. I still back away when they ask me to talk.
Everythings fine. I'm ok...Trust me its all good........If I keep lying it will come true. It has to right?
Will this ever end or am i going to be like this forever? I cant live knowing it wont end. People will get hurt by me.I'll destroy them,make them bitter and cynical.
Maybe its good that I have noone.
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