Yep. I'm deeply conflicted about my scar too.
It helps me to find a middle ground - that I was exceedingly distressed and overwhelmed and out of control, and that it is understandable, knowing the place I was at in my mind at the time, that I would have created such a lasting scar. Not that it was the most healthy way of responding, but understandable given the circumstances. Everyone responds to extreme stress in their own way, and knowing that I can feel more comfortable with the result. Then I am neither proud of nor ashamed of my scar, it is what it is and I can accept that compassionately.
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