[cryingcrimson]

Ok, so most days I view my scars as 'battle wounds' and that they show that i survived and blah, blah blah. But there are days, like today where i'm just so frustrated and angry with them and myself. i hate that i can't wear shorts cause the newer ones on my legs are still purple and i hate that people stare at me. does anyone else get like this, where one day they view the scars as something to maybe not be proud of, but you aren't ashamed of them, but the next day you just want to scream and push time back so you can go back and tell yourself not to ever start? ugh. i'm frustrated with myself today. the word 'why?' has decided to put itself on repeat in my mind. rawrg. ok, i'm done, just wondering if anyone else deals with these feelings too.