Experiences have been on and off but I think it is because I am such a closed person. Mine is a lovely person but I think she has issues herself if I am honest... she is always off ill and looked terrible whilst I was in hospital... hmmm.
Pretty understanding and if I don't want to go into it, she won't force me and will wait until I am ready. But I do say 'I'm fine' quite a lot and so often I don't get to say what I really should do... but that is my fault.
She felt guilty because I told her I wanted to die and she pretty much fobbed me off because she was going on leave for a month- ring your GP, my collegue both of whom I didn't trust. In the end I ended up attempting and she felt really terrible because she said she should have prevented it and I am still concerning her... but still. Not really sure, she wants to respect my wishes regarding my parents and wants to get me help but she doesn't want me to hate her. Not sure if that is a bad thing, but it is my experience.
Edit: And same, my counsellor says I don't have any proper illness but I suspect I may have, though that is good because I don't have to put it on any forms. Apparently I am just 'down' due to events and that makes me feel a little pathetic.
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