There is no happiness. No hope. Only despair. It's always there. It always has been. The darkness. The sadness. It was always part of me. Now, it's taking over. Taking hold of all of me. Showing me the truth. I am alone. I am unloved. I will always be alone and unloved. I am a failure. Even my best, my hardest efforts, are pointless. There is no life here. Only suffering. Only betrayal. Only abandonment. No reason to exist. No reason to go on. No strength to fight.
No one to hold my hand.
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