Hey Nineflyz,
Sorry to hear you are feeling so sh*tty.
But it sounds like you are doing pretty well with working to get better, getting treatment, etc. So congratulations on that.
I've been in hospital more times I can count on my fingers and toes, my disorder is one I will need long-term treatment for, and even though when I go into hospital again I remind myself, that even though I'm feeling SO crappy, feel like I'm a failure and nothing will improve, I try and look back at the last time I was in, how I was then, and look at the improvements, even the tiny ones, or the differences in things that I'm working on.
Just 'cause you are in hospital, doesn't mean you are all the way back where you started, you have moved forward, you just need a burst of intensive support again.
It might be good that they've found you have underlying Bi-Polar, that means they can put you on some Bi-Polar specific meds that can help with your symptoms.
I hope the last week of your inpatient stay goes well and you manage to keep yourself safe and free of self harm.
*thinking of you and sending you warmth and positive vibes*
Ashton
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