[Nineflyz]

So here I am sitting in a clinic once again. I can't believe I let things get so bad that I overdosed. I feel so stupid, thank goodness for friends. I have been here for just under 2 weeks now and it feels like all the wounds have been opened and scratched at. I wanted to cut so bad or just do something to numb the emotional pain I was feeling. They think I might have an underlying Bipolar Disorder, add that to my Borderline Personality Disorder and being an Addict and I feel like such a screwup. I really feel quite hopeless like what is the point. I've been here before and worked so hard on my recovery but all in 1 second it just disappears. Will I ever be normal. I feel like a walking pharmacist with all the medication I am on and still I cannot seem to sleep. Why, why won't it get better, why can't I lead a normal life. My parents are so angry with me 'cause I am "not fine" so I don't fit into their picture perfect little family. All this really sucks, I don't even feel safe going home because I know I will just do it again. Does anyone else out there ever feel like this? Am I alone?