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loew89 · 25-09-2009, 02:21 AM

i am very much someone who stays alone most of the time that way i dont get hurt and people dont end up hurting me. ive tried letting people in. people who tell m e i can trust them and they dont give up on me then a few months later they tell me that i am impossible and that its no use talking to me because i just repeate myself over and over again. i stoped risking letting people in and when i feel like i am getting close to someoen i pick up and move so i dont hurt. and they dont see me hurt.
i moved to a small town where no one knows me but a few people so that i can start over its the one thing i want to do is start over. but like i said i got from being a school star to being homeless to now nothing, i live each day at a time. living with my friend and her family but i feel like i am nothing. i mean nothing. i told my friend today i feel like nothing i feel helpless. after i cut myself and being stuck in this rut for years i just want to give up at times. i know itsnot what i am ment to do. i was never a person to give up on things but this is difficult for me.
what would mean the most to me i cannot say. nothing seems important. i used to have so much be so much and now. nothing is important. what means most to me is just getting through one day at a time with out compleatly giving up on myself.

25-09-2009, 02:21 AM	#4
loew89 Join Date: Sep 2009 Location: Canada I am currently:	i am very much someone who stays alone most of the time that way i dont get hurt and people dont end up hurting me. ive tried letting people in. people who tell m e i can trust them and they dont give up on me then a few months later they tell me that i am impossible and that its no use talking to me because i just repeate myself over and over again. i stoped risking letting people in and when i feel like i am getting close to someoen i pick up and move so i dont hurt. and they dont see me hurt. i moved to a small town where no one knows me but a few people so that i can start over its the one thing i want to do is start over. but like i said i got from being a school star to being homeless to now nothing, i live each day at a time. living with my friend and her family but i feel like i am nothing. i mean nothing. i told my friend today i feel like nothing i feel helpless. after i cut myself and being stuck in this rut for years i just want to give up at times. i know itsnot what i am ment to do. i was never a person to give up on things but this is difficult for me. what would mean the most to me i cannot say. nothing seems important. i used to have so much be so much and now. nothing is important. what means most to me is just getting through one day at a time with out compleatly giving up on myself.