I missed quite a bit while i was gone. Zowie im glad you had a good birthday, even though its over you can still have that happy glowing feeling. Sarah men can be complecated and i have knowen guys like that, that only ever want one thing from you and use the fact that you might be scared or too shy to say no.
Im feeling really lousy. I dont know why though, i mean i should be feeling really happy. So i stayed at this guy that likes me over the weekend, took us til sunday night to get kinda close and stuff, and asking him how he really feels about me.
But i really dont know anything about relationships, kinda sounds sad since im 21 and all, but i dont like letting myself get close to people at all, because of the rejection thats going to happen in end, or what mostly happens.
But i really freaked out badly on him because he knew about my bpd, and i swear i do not remember telling him, i was so close to crying. He really didnt care at all about it, but it feels so personal to me, it took me ages to calm down.
Aghhhh.
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