It does help, from people I know and people I don't.
I'm starting to feel like i'm losing this fight. I'm not strong enough for this.
I've cried myself to sleep 4 nights in a row now.
He's coming to the flat this weekend to hang out and talk. We still have alot of that to do. Right now I don't even know what to say to him.
I'm hurting but I want to get this sorted. Except now, I'm so ****ing paranoid! Everything I have in me is crying out for him to fight for me and show me he wants to make this ok but that's not him. He doesn't beg, he quits and if he quits now I don't know what the hell I do next.
He tells me one thing but I feel another. When he says nice things I doubt him, he says he loves me and he misses me and he wants marriage counselling, and I doubt it. All of it.
He says he's fine, I say really? He says he loves me, I say do you?
It's taken me a month and a half and NOW I fall apart?
****.
Thank you guys, in advance, because I know you'll give me lots of support.
I just feel so weak.
Iz x
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