Hey hun,
Sorry if I'm not on here much at the moment. As you know, I'm taking a break for a while so I can work on my own issues. It doesn't mean that I'm not here for you. You have my number and email address so please don't hesitate to contact me if you want to talk to someone that will listen.
The fact that your parents love is keeping you going is great to hear. It means that you acknowledge that people do care about you, you are loved. I just wish you had more love and support right now so you could see just how loveable you really are. When I got to the second post you made I felt sick inside, my heart sank and I felt nauseated. I thought I'd lost you but was very much relieved to see that you had wrote another later on. Thank Christ you are physically ok.
You can talk to us honey. You can talk to me. I don't know what is making you feel so unloved but you never know..........someone else here may have been through a similar thing. Some people here may understand your pain but you won't know unless you open up. (When you're ready of course, I'm not pushing you). I know I felt unloveable for a very long time but that does pass I can promise you. From the pics I have seen of you and our conversations I can tell that you are a beautiful, loving, kind, attractive and sensitive type of person and there is no reason in the world why someone wouldn't love you.
I agree with what Andrea says, a label doesn't mean much unless you are getting treatment. I know it's very hard to find that because the NHS is useless but you have to keep fighting them honey. Make them earn their pay.
Please please hold on sweetie. Many people here care about you including me, please don't leave us. Like I said earlier, I wish I wasn't on the other side of the world so I could be there and give you a big hug.
Take care hun and stay safe.
Love and hugs,
Nathan xx
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