Hey Rach,
Dealing with grief can be really difficult, especially as it is a loss to suicide. I'm really to sorry you have to go through this, but I know how hard it can be as well do you're not alone in this.
The best thing you can do for yourself is look after yourself and take care of yourself while you grieve, I know it's not going to be easy but try and keep giving yourself the things that will keep you functioning well; eat properly, sleep properly and in general take care of your physical health.
As far as grieving goes, you mention having trouble with what to do and expressing yourself. Perhaps you could write a letter to your friend, or even just write a journal or something here expressing how you feel.
Try and let yourself relax and more than anything - be gentle with yourself. Don't expect too much from yourself and allow yourself some time to heal. Remember that if you need people to talk to, we're more than willing to listen and help you.
I am sorry for your loss, I really am. I hope you know though that you can get through this, and we're here to support you.
Best Wishes,
Aimee xoxo
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