[~KemicalRain~]

1. the man and the madness
well it all started friday evening, i aint allowed on the computer during the day anymore so you guys are going to have to bear with my mad rantings a bit more and stuff, which gets me to my point i slipped up again i knew it was going to happen but i didnt want it to and i know it will carry on happening at the moment because i am so damn weak and i cant hold out on anything.

2. the failure and hope
well me and my gf have been arguing more and more lately and i dont know if it is me but i am sure she is cheating on me i dont know why but its the way she goes on and things and well thats causing my ED to pop up more and more often and also the fact that i am drinking more as well

3. the attempt and the fall
well i know i am going to fall in respect to my drinking and pretty much all my other problems but well i will be awy from here more which means i wont beable to get the support i need during the day and i will probs be complaining a lot more sorry you guys

4. and in closing
i know some of this might not make sense i wont be around for most of the time but i would love some support for when i next get on which should be tommorow and well i will be here for anyone who needs me too
thanking you in advance
Peace Love and good happiness stuff
STEVE