i have this experience with alcohol too, and drugs that i have tried. and i have addiction in my family too *hugs*
i think its more of a psychological thing, like.. i liked myself better when im drunk\stoned. i like that i can talk to everybody, i like that im less self conscious.. i like that i can be honest, i like that i can open up.
all the things i CANT do when im sober
it might be a good idea to avoid alcohol for a while, or talk to a counsellor or something, it might even be a selfesteem issue? i know it is for me
i hope you are ok
xo
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