I personally would not feel comfortable with my parents seeing my scars and so I would probably try and get out of doing things that would stop that if I were younger, now I don't really do activities like swimming and stuff with them so it's not an issue and my parents never question me on never wearing shorts because I am always falling over and often my legs are really battered so they just think that's why though I hadn't worn shorts for a few yrs before i started cutting and i just don't do skirts and dresses, they just would not suit me!
Swimming is the one thing at the moment I'm thinking about doing but can't bring myself to but I think a lot of that is because I would be swimming more than likely in the college pool and i am very insecure about my body; between the changing rooms and the pool you have to walk across a path outside where EVERYONE can see you! As well as that I REALLY don't want college knowing about my scars so I kind of wouldn't feel right. However, I have gone to hydrotherapy sessions whilst I was cutting (admittedly wearing shorts and having less scars) and I really wasn't comfortable about going because of my issues with my body and wondering what others would think of my scars but I didn't stop myself going; I was determined to see if it would help and in the end the physio (and the physio students) would probably have seen SH scars before and apart from one guy who was probably in his late thirties the rest were pretty old so it didn't bother me at all really. I've found over time having things like medical professionals and such see has become easier because at one point I was reluctant to start seeing a physiotherapist again because of my scars (part of it is also because of the time it takes too!) but once it came to it I just decided I needed to do it for my own good.
I think it's more about the attitude people take towards it and what they think is the most important. And it is easier, I've found, now that I've not cut for some time than it was when I was cutting a lot.
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