thanks for the replies and hugs. I'm sorry to whine again, I just need to write this down. I feel better than I did but have just remembered I have work tomorrow and I work doing public science shows, and kids birthday parties. I dont think I can make myself go.
I know I will probably be safer but I dont know if I go I wont end up breaking down. I cant do that, not at work, not in front of kids. There are no supportive staff in tomorrow who I can talk to either. I cant call in sick cos I have been off on holiday for three weeks and I have to work sunday. It's so hard being chirpy with young kids ALL Day, the thought is making me cry. I'm so pathetic.
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