Thank you for the replies... I understand what you all are saying and I know it but sometimes I just don't feel it. I constantly have always been bad about tearing myself down and second guessing myself, and I just feel that he had made it worse.
I just want the world to stop spinning but your right, something like this shouldn't take me down nor will I allow it.. I can't afford mentally to be the victim for long, I want to overcome this and go further then him.
He just confuses me a lot, his trying to stay my friend. He keeps saying he did the "best" for me but yet he cheated on me for a year, and did all those really horrible things.. It was such mixed signals I hate that I feel lost in my own mind because of him, I hate that in a way I still love him yet he hurt me the most out of everyone I have ever known.
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