It's definitely not your fault at all. Trying to stop is a big step and it's going to be even harder whilst you're waiting for a counsellor. I know it must be very difficult for you when you have visual reminders of what you're wanting to do again but can't. Try and keep yourself busy, focus on other areas of your body, give yourself a pedicure, spend some time soaking your feet, paint your nails, do things to take care of your body, even if you feel like you don't deserve it.
Hang in there, it is not your fault. Don't expect it to all get better at once, councelling may throw up some things that make you feel lousy, but stick with it.
love & light
pea.xx
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