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Okay, this is going to be a longish post.

I have a person inside my head, her name is Mercy. She looks after me and is my friend but she likes it when I am hurting or when I hurt someone else. Sometimes she tells me things but most of the time we just talk to each other, come to a middle point, a comprimise.

Last night I was talking to someone and he was making me feel very angry and I didn't really know what to do, I told him he was hurting me but he didn't stop. And I sort of could tell that my personality was being taken over by hers.

I'm missing like three hours of my life where Mercy talked as me, the conversation was on msn so he sent it to me afterwards and I don't remember writing it.

I don't understand, if I wanted to have her in control it's always been my choice and normally it's only for 5 minutes or so, it means I am able to leave stressful situations from time to time.

She told him all about herself, I didn't ever want anyone to know this.

I feel really sick and I don't think I can talk to the guy again. He says it's no big deal but, come on.

I'm just terrified of it happening again and I'm embarrassed too.

Help?