1. What kind of environment were you in when you drank? Were you with people you felt comfortable with, or alone? Was it a pleasant atmosphere? - At a friend's party; I felt pretty comfortable around most of the people there; good atmosphere.
2. Did you like the taste of the alcohol? - Not really, but in an odd way I liked it simply because it was...different. After a couple drinks I really didn't mind too much lol.
3. How did you feel when you were drunk? - Much, much more comfortable and sociable that I usually am. I felt completely comfortable talking to people I barely knew, and I loved the feeling. It was really fun feeling like my "Awkward Wall" finally came down for a bit. Just felt free. Though, I might mention the fact that after a couple hours or so, I had a small "mental breakdown" of sorts...ended up curled up on the floor crying hysterically about how f*cked-up I was and was just really messed up. Stupid as I am, I am still convinced that the good outweighs the bad.
4. Was the sensation of being drunk markedly different to your day-to-day life? As I already talked about, yeah - very. While I'm not a total hermit and human-avoider, I'm just generally fairly introverted and don't do a lot of socializing. I felt different, and free in a way.
I guess it's a combination of the social aspect and the effect of alcohol that makes me crave it. I can't deny that I really liked the feeling of being drunk.
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