Not hearing enough voices makes me feel so fake & that i don't deserve help at all.
To be honest, and I am quite ashamed of myself to admit that,I feel jealous of people who hear voices often,I feel that voices is the thin line that makes a person ill or not.
In my case,I feel so stuck cuz i don't feel ill enough to get help.
And i don't feel 'normal' to fit in with others.
There is this secert that i have to hide all the time that i see 'things'...
And it is very consuming !
I feel so stuck on the cycle.Not here and not there.
And i don't feel anybody understands.
My fiance said to me "Roby you have six months to solve urself out"
lol
I had this for 13 years he can't just tell me to sort it out,how on earth can i do this?
And I've been on meds and it didn't help so i stopped...
I can't help myself heal cuz i am not ill
And i can't seem to be like any other person i know.
I feel so godamn alone.
So stuck.
I'm sorry for taking so much time, thanks a lot LaurieR for you time.
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