[Sleepless123]

At my appointment today i have just been asked by my CPN to do other things first before contacting her when im having a hard time in future.im a bit shocked.i barely ever contact when im in crisis and when i do its cos im really really struggling and as a VERY last resort like after ive taken a large OD and slept 24 hours.i dont understand.i suppose im shocked more than anything.i find it so so hard to contact the services and ask for help.i have tried so much to cope on my own all the time.It has nearly been the death of me.im just shocked.Not even so much angry.Just shocked.Clearly im not trying hard enough to cope on my own......