I'm so sorry you are feeling so miserable right now. I've had moods where everything is running through my head and my thoughts are contradictory and I can't tell if i'm happy or pissed, where I want to laugh and cry and cut all at once, so I think I can kind of understand where you are. And I very much understand what it feels like to be feeling great for a good bit of time, only to crash later. Either way, that sounds absolutely miserable. I'm so sorry you are feeling so completely shitty. Is there no one you can talk to? Maybe you could put everything out on the table to your husband, so he knows what's going on instead of having to guess? Maybe if you express your concerns he can help you. And as for the long term, maybe you could see a counselor or get some meds (assuming you aren't totally opposed) to help you deal with things? I started taking mood stabilizers, and they didn't fix everything - I still get lows - but it really did help with the worst. Just a thought. and if you can get some sleep you might feel better. everything is impossible when you've not slept for several days ^^ if you need anything feel free to pm. take care!
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