I thought sleeping on it would make it better.
Im having to sit on the phone to Saz because she's upset.
and it's ****ing stupid.
it's all ****ing stupid.
THIS JUST ISN'T FAIR.
but when was life fair?
especially to me.
i got so close to telling him last night, we spoke on the phone for about an hour... i actually am going to have a massive phone bill.
god i hate debt.
he said for me to go round when i woke up.
but i can't put myself on him, i'm such a burden.
i'm so ****ing stupid.
I NEED TO BREAK OUT OF THESE THOUGHT PATTERNS.
i know i do.
i've been lying to everybody james said... especially myself.
and it's true.
i knew all along i just had to have somone tell me.
and now i don't know what to do.
this referral is taking forever.
mental health in our town is so overstretched.
remember in the news that woman who had the kid at 62?
yeah she was my ex therapist.
no wondeer i'm so screwed.
ARGH.
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