still all over the place to be honest think i am just worrying and stressing over things i have no control over. it seems my mood swings become more destressing and often when stress is involved. i dont at the moment have a formal diagnoses so i am on anti depressants at the moment but they do absolutly nothing for me. my gp has been treating me for depression for a long time. started seeing a cpn months back for cbt but has from the beginning said she thinks i have bipolar type 2. she put in a referal last week to a psych and told me i prob wouldnt hear anything until bout august but i got a letter through yesterday with an appointment for thursday and i am terrified. think this is having a major affect on me at the moment. i aint even sure why i am worried tbh!!! i know that everyones different but do you think i will get a diagnoses on thursday?? and if so would they start me on different meds then?? these questions are driving me nuts at the moment and the fact i havent slept for three weeks and although mentally i am wide awake its beginning to affect other areas.
i really dont wanna have a mental illness but would rather have one and it be able to be controlled than live the rest of my life like this its making me crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!
how long you been on meds for?? did the first ones they try you on work? or was there a lot of trial and error??
sorry bit of a rant but feel better writing this stuff down!!!
hope you get your relationships back on track but these think can be so tricky (in my experience lol not really sure in your situation)
do you really miss the mood swings? do you miss the highs?? pritty sure there must be very few people who miss the lows!!!!!
take care
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