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I'm obviously some sort of crazie, considering everything. I really think that now I need some kind of medical thing that might help me. It's been offered millions of times before but I wasn't in a place where I could accept it then.

To where can I go if I can't go to the doctor's? Which I can't. I'm not in an emergency so I'm not going to turn up at A&E. I just saw that episode of Desperate Housewives where Bree checks herself into the psychiatric hospital; I wish we had institutions like that here.

I walked past the Samaritans' place yesterday (just casually, yanno) and now I don't want to go there because it's small and that made me realise somehow that being Warrington, it's probably old people who run it. And I love old people in general but I don't want to tell them things and make them sad. I also realised that I might know the people who work there, in which case I would tell them nothing at all, and wish I'd never gone in.

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