I know it won't be happening any time soon. Today was a distraction from it all. What excuse is going to come next?
I believe you when you say you're ready and want to but why back out? I know you're scared about it and I know it's not the easiest thing to get into but please don't say we'll do this and back out. I can't handle that.
Please just be honest with me tomorrow and tell me it's not the time. Whatever you do please don't mess me around.
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I'm scared, alone well Claire's here so that's not really alone..ouch.
Nothing can stop this feeling flowing through me at the moment.
Like standing on the edge of a cliff on a cold, breezy winters night. Waiting for that final something that's going to push me off.
I don't know when it's going to get here or if it will at all.
Maybe you will notice and pull me back.
I need your help.
Please help me.
Please.
I love you
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