My name is Ryan. I'm a 17 year old girl.
I've been riding horses for 7 years, although this past year I haven't ridden as much because I've been so tired and unmotivated, which I feel constantly guilty for because it isn't fair to my horse, Carolina, who I love so unbelievably much because she is truely amazing.
My best friend is also amazing, and I don't know what I'd do without her. Things have changed some between us in the past few months as I've gone down hill but we're still super close.
I'm still trying to figure out who I am... I really have no idea. I don't know if I am like I was a year ago, super happy and upbeat, but terribly shy, or tired and depressed but more out going?
so yeah. I don't know who I am yet. But I'm more hopeful than I used to be that eventually I'll find out and be ok again.
sorry this is so long.
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