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PsCasino · 22-07-2007, 01:57 PM

Hi, thanks for posting a reply. You're right about a lot of things, I'm definately not happy about how drug use has adversely affected my life and it wasn't until recently I've actually taken a step back and realised all the damage it has really caused.
I'm tackling a particularly unpleasant depression bout at the moment, a lot of introspection and general re-evaluation of where my life is actually going. Maintaining the internet anonymity I'm going to fill in a few blanks about myself, maybe it'll help others advise me (if they choose to do so) or serve as a warning to people who find themselves in a similar situation. As I mentioned in my previous post I'm at University, London in the UK to narrow it down a little, I'm male, 22 years old and studying English Literature. I just got the grades for my second year and I received 4 A's, 2 B's a C and an F, I'm only mentioning this to show i'm not a complete layabout and that I should, in general, have something to be cheerful about!
My life is quite clearly going downhill, but I honestly have no idea how to stop this from happening! I know it sounds melodramatic, I should stay at Uni, finish etc, go get a job afterwards but lately that all seems so hollow. My relationship with my family may soon be irrepareably damaged, my health is definately at a low (although i have started to visit the gym again, stopped smoking and no longer drink) and I don't seem to be capable of having a one on one conversation with anyone (family, friends or stranger) without some sort of emotional outburst. One of the strangest symptoms is that i have been entirely incapable of crying, I can sob or it seems like I'm going to break down but I just can't do it, it just ends, my eyes are red and watery but i can carry on normally, I'm definately starting to worry about my mental health.
To ease the mind of anyone reading this I have an appointment with a doctor tomorrow, maybe some counselling may be in order.

I hope things are better for you now, i'm very interested in how you coped and what you are doing now.

22-07-2007, 01:57 PM	#3
PsCasino Join Date: Jul 2007 Location: London, UK I am currently:	Hi, thanks for posting a reply. You're right about a lot of things, I'm definately not happy about how drug use has adversely affected my life and it wasn't until recently I've actually taken a step back and realised all the damage it has really caused. I'm tackling a particularly unpleasant depression bout at the moment, a lot of introspection and general re-evaluation of where my life is actually going. Maintaining the internet anonymity I'm going to fill in a few blanks about myself, maybe it'll help others advise me (if they choose to do so) or serve as a warning to people who find themselves in a similar situation. As I mentioned in my previous post I'm at University, London in the UK to narrow it down a little, I'm male, 22 years old and studying English Literature. I just got the grades for my second year and I received 4 A's, 2 B's a C and an F, I'm only mentioning this to show i'm not a complete layabout and that I should, in general, have something to be cheerful about! My life is quite clearly going downhill, but I honestly have no idea how to stop this from happening! I know it sounds melodramatic, I should stay at Uni, finish etc, go get a job afterwards but lately that all seems so hollow. My relationship with my family may soon be irrepareably damaged, my health is definately at a low (although i have started to visit the gym again, stopped smoking and no longer drink) and I don't seem to be capable of having a one on one conversation with anyone (family, friends or stranger) without some sort of emotional outburst. One of the strangest symptoms is that i have been entirely incapable of crying, I can sob or it seems like I'm going to break down but I just can't do it, it just ends, my eyes are red and watery but i can carry on normally, I'm definately starting to worry about my mental health. To ease the mind of anyone reading this I have an appointment with a doctor tomorrow, maybe some counselling may be in order. I hope things are better for you now, i'm very interested in how you coped and what you are doing now.