update to letter:( does it sound ok??
(28-6-09)
Have no idea whether I should have let you read any of that stuff. Feel so stupid and very, very bad and pathetic. And I know that you may just say I am not trying hard enough or that but I really am. I am just so tired right now and with my friend gone, I feel I don’t have anything left in me. Oh and today it is 9 days till I see her... but 9 days is still way too long.
I am scared to let you read this stuff and have no idea why.... so if you do get to read this that’s great, just please don’t hurt me or hate me like everyone else has the minute I begin opening up and being very honest with how things ‘really’ are.
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