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Lost hope
Today for the first time i went to see a psychiatrist because my mood swings and anxiety have just gotten out of control. I was nervous because i hate having to talk to new people about my issues, I'm comfortable now with my therapist and thats the only reason i talk to her. But this guy number one just seemed bored he kept yawning and at one point even pulled out nail clippers and started to cut his nails, and secondly didn't seem to get how serious my anxiety and stuff are. He said that because of the situation with my mom is should be depressed, even though i've struggled since i was like 12 and my mom was only diagnosed a year and a half ago. He said he didn't think i needed medication just blew it off that i should be sad cause my mom is sick and that will pass when she gets a little better. I give up! I'm sick of going to doctors and trying new medications that don't work. I don't have the stength to deal with it. I feel like maybe there is nothing wrong and maybe its all being made up in my head or something. Like if the doctors can't figure out if its depression or bipolar disorder maybe its cause theres nothing wrong. I just feel so alone. I can't keep being disappointed by docs and medications so i'm done with it all. Has anyone else had trouble with getting people to understand you? I feel like i'm screaming an no one can hear me. Its just so frustrating I can't imagine living the rest of my life like this.
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