Oh i know what you mean I think.
Thats a really weird feeling, I know.
I feel like when I am not SI'ing that I am.. like.. pointless. That no one has a reason to care about me, that no one has a reason to talk to me or try and cheer me up because I have no problems. I felt like I was on my own. (even though EVERYBODY obviously has problems and need support and love and care) You deserve support and love and care whether you are cutting or not.
And like said above, I find if you make a list.. the cons of cutting outweight the "pros". A life without SI is clearly the best choice for all of us, but it is really hard to get to for most of us. Were you really happier when you were cutting? Try and rememeber the bad things... hiding\guilt\embarrasment.. things like that.
I really hope you are ok
You aren't alone
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