You are not wasting peoples time!!
You are not worthless!!
Every single person in the world has the right to be heard, the right to be themselves. How dare your boss make you the office joke just because you go to church and are a classical musician. People should be in awe of you, that this day in age you are not afraid to hide your beliefs and they should be in awe of your talent and that you do something constructive in your spare time other than just watch crappy tv or binge drink!
(sorry mods, if I've over generalised bout crappy tv and binge drinking, but I'm trying to make a point)
Be proud of who you are, past scars included, they show that you've had to go through more **** than most people can cope with, but you've survived, you are still here, they are your war wounds, but be a war veteran that people celebrate, don't go back into battle, you've done your time.
I know what you mean about family and perfection and not really talking. I've only just told my family that I SI after hiding it from them for nearly 11years. That's why RYL is so important to me, here I can be the true me and can really get my words out. You'll often find me in the virtual psych ward as its where I feel safe, but for some reason I clicked onto your thread and felt compelled to answer you. Let RYL be your family, you've explained things fine so far and I'm sure we'll all be patient with you whilst you find your words. We just want you to stay safe.
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