I've tried to see doctors. I've tried the whole med route, and I strongly believe in medication, just not for me. I don't like how I feel when I am on them. I don't truly feel myself and I have trouble knowing how exactly I am feeling on them because they screw with my mind. I've tried all different kinds. I mean realistically I know what I *Should* be doing. I just refuse to. I want help but at the same time I sorta feel like if I get help I will lose apart of me that I have known for so long. Does that make since?
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